6.30.2001If its deep mystery we would sound; But if desire always within us be, Its outer fringe is all that we shall see. Last night was pretty fun. Ryan's "Heffner"-type estate was grand. We all hit the pool and hot tub, had much to drink, were loud and the cops showed up for a disturbance call, and just had an all out good time. One thing that was jacked though, was my beer! I brought a pack of 18 MGD's, and after drinking a few, I went back to get another, and the whole box was missing from the fridge! Someone walked off with all our beer! And of course, after watching "Dude Where's My Car?" the night before, I had to play the "Dude, where's my beer?!" joke into the ground. Being drunk made it much funnier than it really was. And *that* is what I love about parties. Stupidity. :0P "Dude...it's a llama." :0P blogged by Chaz @ 3:31 PM |
6.29.2001And loses by gaining. Ahahahaha..."Dude Where's My Car?!" is so funny! We watched that last night, and it was good times! ;0) Then we got hungry and went to Carl's Jr.'s drive-thru...lotta snacks were eaten during that flick. Good stuff. :0P Tonight we're goin' to a party in Thousand Oaks, of one of the Academy's alumni, and apparently he lives next door to Will Smith. hehe. I think I remember going to a party at his house (my friend's, not Will Smith's), back during first year at the Academy...it's a phat pad. Well I need to hit the shower! Ahhh-deee-oh's! :0P blogged by Chaz @ 6:57 PM |
6.28.2001and without windows it is dark. I went out with my buddy Chris last night (he's the guy I'm staying with). We met up with some fellow Academy alumni at a bar one of them manages. We got many free drinks, and we were plowed off our arses. Had I not been so drunk, I might have been more upset by an email I read after I got home. But, I wasn't. No sense in arguing. If that's what she thinks is right, then by all means, she can do it. I'll miss her much, and think of her often. Thanks for all the good times we shared, and great convos we had. They...you...meant a lot to me. Bye. A good friend is one who thinks you're a good egg, even though you're half-cracked." blogged by Chaz @ 2:20 PM |
6.27.2001nothing is left undone; the way of nature rules by allowing things to take their course, not by contriving to change. I'm sitting, I'm sitting. I'm waiting, I'm waiting. I'm watching, I'm watching. I'm hearing, I'm hearing. I'm talking, I'm talking. I'm doing, I'm doing. I'm walking, I'm walking. I'm loving, I'm loving. I'm leaving... Ummm...let's see. Not much goin' on. Just hoping I can move into a place soon so I can get on with my life...it's like everything is on hold when you are moving, and everything you own is packed up into boxes. I am stuck inbetween something. Wedged into a holding point in my life. Struggling to get out. Grasping for some helping hands...waiting. Anyhow, I'm off to check some of these places out! blogged by Chaz @ 6:07 PM |
6.26.2001I may have found a nice place to live. A quaint little 1 bedroom, 2 blocks from my old school. $650 a month, which is not at all bad for this area. It's roomy enough for me, and it's quiet and safe. Only thing is that the guy living in it *just* gave his 30 day notice, and won't be out until the end of July. So I am allowed to sit around and wait to move in, and just chill at my friend's house here...or I could continue to find a place that is ready to move in now. Decisions, decisions. In other news...ummm...I guess I don't have any other news. All I do is look at apartments now. Oh, and public cable access television. Holy cow they can show just about ANYTHING on that! Crazy! blogged by Chaz @ 4:51 AM |
6.24.2001Hello from Reseda. I hate when the sun is on one side of you the whole drive up! Now my left arm is sunburned from hanging it out the window! Stupid sun! (even if it wasn't hanging out the window..I couldn't hide it in the shade, or I'd crash or somethin') So I'm here at my friends place. His roommate is out of the country, and I am crashin' in his bedroom until I find a sweet little pad of my own. (Going to look tomorrow.) Great thing his roomie has a computer set up here with a cable modem. Ohhhh how I've missed high-speed internet! (Only thing that sucks is that he uses Netscape and not IE..stupid bastard!) It's been.."a trip" so far. And I'm freakin' exhausted. Not to mention it's hot as hell right now. I'm goin' to take a nap! I only got 2 hours sleep last night...blah! blogged by Chaz @ 8:55 PM |
Goodbye from San Diego. blogged by Chaz @ 8:25 AM |
You work on everyday. If you stop, the beauty Will slowly go away. And such is love. And such is friendship. --------- My life is in boxes right now. I have them all stacked up in this empty living room. All that is left to do is take my bed apart, and pack up my computer, and then clean my apartment out after loading up the van. I'll be leaving San Diego around noon (hopefully), and off to Los Angeles I will be. I'm sad. I'm happy. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm nervous. I'm nothing. I'm nothing. blogged by Chaz @ 12:16 AM |
6.23.2001I've decided to preface each day of my blog with some text from the Tao Te Ching. Anyway...massive things to do. I tried goin' to the bank to get the money order for my apartment dealy thing...but uh..banks are closed on saturday!?! That sucks! I remember back in Idaho the banks would be open for a small amount of time! Now I'm gonna have to mail the money order back here from LA. I hope the landlord doesn't mind...I mean, she *did* say have it by the 1st. I should be okay. I'm off to donate half my furniture to Goodwill! (And a giant stuffed animal I won at the fair) blogged by Chaz @ 2:14 PM |
6.22.2001Well don't you just love landlords? Apparently since I was not able to provide a full 30 day notice to moving out, I have to PAY for part of next month. First it all started off with $400 bucks...half of a months rent. She said I had to pay that much, and that it would come out of my deposit. Meaning I would get a whole $100 bucks back if I was lucky enough to clean my apartment to the point of perfection. Yah right.So I felt a bit fucked, and told her a tad bit of a lie, only because I thought they'd have some compassion. I told her my grandmother was sick, and I was moving for emergency reasons to go be with her and help her out. That just didn't seem to phase her... "sorry without a full 30 days I can't just let it slide.." Dude that bites! (And for anyone reading this, my grandmother has already passed away many years ago when I was in high school. I've missed her very much.) Anyhoo, so I left with that. Then later she came by and told me that another guy who had given an earlier 30 day notice, is no longer moving out. So she has devised a plan to tell the management company that I am the one who gave that notice, thus lessening the amount of money I must pay. That's a good thing. I'd rather not pay any money at all, but I seemed to have gotten myself into this sad situation, and it's my job to get out of it. $213.28 is the new amount. In a money-order, by the 1st of the month. Then I will get my full $500 deposit back hopefully. *breaks out the mop* Back to work! blogged by Chaz @ 2:03 PM |
| Vell Vell Vell...ve meet again Mr. Blog. Vere are de secret documents! :0P
Okay so my blog has found a new home at LiquidWeb.com, congrats to them for being extremely cheap and cool and stuff. I've been quite busy these past few days, move out date projected to be this Sunday, then you can expect me not to blog for a bit I don't think. I've got things in boxes, things ready to go to Goodwill (some tables I don't use), and things strewn about the room because I don't know what I want to do with them just yet. Oh the excitement. Can you feel it? You can almost cut it with a knife it's so thick in here. :0P Let's see, in other news, I have designed my next tattoo that will be placed on my upper back between my shoulder blades. Of course I'll have to wait awhile until I get it, since I have no money to budget something like a $200 dollar tattoo. Oh well, at least I stopped eating, I can't budget for food right now either. :0P I need to go pack more things up, and take those tables to Goodwill. Catch ya all later! blogged by Chaz @ 11:49 AM |
6.19.2001If you understand others you are smart.If you understand yourself you are illuminated. If you overcome others you are powerful. If you overcome yourself you have strength. If you know how to be satisfied you are rich. If you can act with vigor, you have a will. If you don't lose your objectives you can be long-lasting. If you die without loss, you are eternal. -Tao Te Ching, Chapter 33 blogged by Chaz @ 5:23 PM |
6.18.2001Ever have that feeling that you should be somewhere?Be with someone? Be doing something? But you're not? Yah. I hope you know exactly how I feel. Just don't forget...the butterflies. blogged by Chaz @ 2:05 PM |
6.17.2001Well I'm back from Hollywood, and I had a good time there. It's exactly what I needed.The graduation commencement took place at Universal Studios, and it was good to hear some inspirational speeches by past Alumni. A year after having not acted or been around a bunch of actors, and I start to go crazy. So just listening to them talk about the business was really needed. Gil Bellows was the celebrity speaker this year, and he was quite funny. Later, at the reception I was standing outside with my friend Kain, and Gil was standing right next to us, so we introduced ourselves. "Hi, I'm Chaz Donovan, I went to the Academy last year." "Oh? What are you doing now?" he says. "Well I moved to San Diego and worked for an internet company, but I'll be moving next week back to LA." "Oh? Where are you going to live?" he asks. "Umm..I don't know yet, I'm apartment shopping." "Oh okay." For an actor who is on Ally McBeal, you'd think he'd be a little more vibrant and stuff, but he was very quiet and shy when I was talking to him. I could hardly hear any of what he said to me. Plus I got that erie feeling that he was some sort of stalker too. Hehe. I had a feeling that if I kept talking to him, he'd start asking more weird questions... "So, what's your address in San Diego? Can I come visit? Want to come over to my house?" Anyway, I didn't pose for a photo with him, nor did I get his autograph...as many people there were doing. I did take a picture of him while he was giving his speech, so I'll post that later. In my quest of finding an apartment...I didn't really go looking. But, my friend Chris, whom I thought of as the funniest guy at our school, has offered me his roommates bedroom, because his roommate went back home for the summer. He lives in Reseda, California...which if you know movie trivia well enough, is where The Karate Kid himself moved. *makes karate chop motions* *sings* And I'll be the one..who will fight..for your honor! (That's the theme song from Karate Kid...) blogged by Chaz @ 6:35 PM |
6.15.2001I'll be away for the weekend...well, starting Friday afternoon. I'm off to Hollywood to hang out with friends friday night, see a show, then drink with some others. Then Saturday I'll watch them graduate, then go scout some apartments, then go to another party saturday night which is evidentally being held at my old comedy-acting teachers restaurant. That should be a kick! She actually played the "mean" teacher on "FAME"...Yes, the acting school I attended was much like "FAME"...minus the wool leg warmers. :0P See you all when I get back Sunday! blogged by Chaz @ 12:37 AM |
6.14.2001Well my desk is naked.Today is my last day of something I've been a part of for the good part of 3 years. I've made this decision, and although what I originally planned out, didn't work out for the best... Maybe it did. Maybe this is good enough. Maybe we are doing something right for now. I'm movin' to Hollywood, which is a drastic turn around from the aforementioned Portland in previous posts. I'm going to act like I've never acted before. The passion is there and ready to come out. This will be good for me, whether I wanted it this soon or not. Thanks for the help, rainbow. :0) blogged by Chaz @ 3:47 PM |
6.13.2001Woe is me.Lotta stuff to deal with. Lotta stuff to make up for. Lotta stuff to do. Lotta stuff. All is not lost. The sun still shines, the clouds still rain, the grass still grows. blogged by Chaz @ 6:13 PM |
6.11.2001I think Blogtography.com will be coming down soon, as will Wiredbar.com and Chazio.com....Fuck. :0( ...and I'll never show my face again because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough and I don't have the right stuff - all I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart... blogged by Chaz @ 6:29 PM |
6.10.2001I am not cool enough.I found this out last night. Went to dinner for Trinity's birthday party, then we were going to this club, right? Well so we're standing in line for this pretentious night club, and the bouncer guy is walking up and down the line looking at people. He spots me, points at me and says "we have a dress code, no jeans, no tennis shoes." which I was wearing with a nice shirt and stuff. So yah, me not being the *clubber* type, had no idea I had to wear slacks and nice shoes to dance. I could have gone home to change I suppose, but I bid farewell to Trinity and the group of girls. I was the odd one out anyhow, being the only guy with six girls. (Oh yes, I was the pimp though.) I remember seeing those places that require a jacket and tie to eat, and if you weren't wearing one, they had "loaner" jackets and ties. I wonder if this club had loaner pants and shoes. :0P In any case, I had fun at dinner, and standing in line for ten minutes to the club I was not cool enough to get into. blogged by Chaz @ 1:46 PM |
6.09.2001I had a good time drinkin' with my buddy Logan last night. We went to some wine bar...La Provence...or something like that. He had to "make an appearance" there apparently, and then we headed over to Rockbottom across the street. Yay for no cover charges!Anyway, we had a beer there, and headed back over to the wine bar to shoot the shit with some girls and whatnot. It's good to know we can order beer at a wine bar. I was happy. Then we walked around downtown (as we did earlier trying to find the wine bar), and we stopped in the office quickly, at like 1am, and I'm sure the security guard knew we were a little bit tipsy. Who goes in at 1am to work? Anyway, I'm looking forward to tonight, where Trinity (of CollegeClub fame) turns 21, and we'll be partying the night away! And then... I work in the morning. Ugh. :0P blogged by Chaz @ 1:07 PM |
6.08.2001Oh the countdown begins...I'm getting more excited, and more nervous each and every day. I love it! Anyway, in other news, my shitty van was fixed, so that at least I'll be able to drive to Portland with no problems. *crosses fingers* Wasn't under warranty, it was another part that was broken, not what they fixed before. Had to replace my fuel pump, and some fuel injector lines, and fuel filter. Total: $360.00 Ugh. That's $860 bucks I've put into that van in the last 2 months. Terrible....terrible...terrible. I'll be goin' out to drinks with a friend tonight, should be a good time. I'm in need of one. And I'm sure he needs one too, since he hasn't done much since moving here. Tomorrow night is my friend "Trinity's" birthday. :0) We'll be goin' to the bars, and then to some clubs to dance! Woot! She'll be 21!! (Man I feel old.) I'm out. blogged by Chaz @ 7:33 PM |
6.06.2001Today the sky was blue, the sun was a washed out yellow, and the breeze off the ocean was cool and comfortable. What to do on a day off from work?I went to the park. I went to the park, and I was alone. Quite comfortably alone, as I lay in the grass on the hillside overlooking Old Town San Diego. I took a nap of sorts. The kind of nap where you are thinking about things throughout, yet you're at peace. Usually when I nap and I have a lot of stuff on my mind, my brow furrows a bit when it comes across stressful situations. I can't recall that happening while I took in the fresh air and smell of rich green grass. I worked out in my head, things I felt needed to be corrected. So many times we rush into our problems, and we set ourselves on a path that could ultimately lead the wrong way. It's good to pinch your arm at this point, and wake up and realize what you're doing. So I woke up. I've been treating something the wrong way, and I woke up. I'm usually a selfless, giving type of guy. But most recently I've been selfish with something, someone, and I had no right to. If only I had realized that sooner, they might not seem so far away. Hopefully it's not too late. It's not too late... blogged by Chaz @ 2:00 AM |
6.05.2001Eh, that was too long and boring. Email me if you would like a copy of what I wrote, I don't feel like keeping it up here.Sorry. blogged by Chaz @ 5:07 AM |
6.03.2001The strength of the soul, and beauty of the human spirit rests within us all. Rarely do we expose these areas deep inside ourselves. Rarely.In moments of heartache, strife, and most any trial and tribulation we come across, we reach down inside ourselves, and pull out the most magical, awe-inspiring strength known to man. Perseverance. This form of love is quite contagious, and spreads to those who need the strength not only for themselves, but for the ones we care about who are fighting their battles. We are their coaches, their cheerleaders, their husbands, wives, daughters, sons, brothers, sisters, cousins, friends, and lovers. We are inspired by their undying courage, and they are willed by our self-less love for them. We are their breadcrumbs out of the forest...their hope for a better, brighter day. Don't give up. Fight for you and for them. Be strong, reach down inside, and be strong, and know that your perseverance is contagious. We're here for you. Love you. blogged by Chaz @ 11:03 PM |
6.02.2001Yup, looks like I've redesigned Blogtography. This is the first time I've done so since first setting it up months ago. I'm quite proud of myself for not redesigning it every single week, or day, or hour...*cough* Anyway, tell me what you think! blogged by Chaz @ 6:32 PM |
6.01.2001Well I just had to share these little pearls of funny after reading my site stats.Search Query Report: (what people type into search engines, and my page comes up on the list) Okay, *some* of those are okay...but why may I ask was someone looking for a "picture of fat baby"?!?! (And yes, I realize I have a picture of me as a baby, and I was fat..but damn) [Begin service announcement] Sickos on the net! We must keep our fat babies safe from the weirdos! Free the fat babies! Err...something like that. [/end service announcement] blogged by Chaz @ 5:42 PM |